I’m writing this blog with sincere honestly.. I may upset people I may even lose people.. make people laugh maybe even cry! But this is my life, my aim is to be transparent, truthful and at times angry and maybe even extremely happy!
Day by day it’s going to change. I hope that my stories and tales will captivate you to read further.. because this is MY life!
If you get bored please leave! I won’t take it to heart or maybe I will who knows!
I’m 31, I live on my own with my cat Jasmine, she’s adorable but she is a feisty one! She always wants my attention! she is currently sat on my lap biting my phone, an attention seeker at best.
I have 2 wonderful children they live with their dad and yes I’ve had to answer that question a million times ‘why don’t they live with you.’ I don’t have to answer that question it’s personal but people still look at me and go ‘oh, but why.’ And trust me they judge without knowing the reasons! It was the best option when me and my ex separated, I worked full time and their dad works around the kids school hours. I didn’t want to uproot them at such a difficult time for them already! I’m not going into this so much right now. But I’m sure it will come up later!
Ok so a list! It’s such an amazing diverse list! I do not believe that a name defines you! But trust me they have an entirely crippling grasp!
Borderline Personality Disorder
Nice list right? There’s a few missing but right now it’s not important to mention. These are all symptoms that have been given names, so I have been told that is!
Ready to get bored and read more?
The mental health issues are interesting. I was diagnosed with Bipolar around 7 years ago, and I was struggling so much after I had my second son. We went through a really tough time when I was pregnant with him. It’s been a really perplexing time dealing with these symptoms. Happiness, sadness, anger, elation, love, hate, stress, confidence, self loathing.. no middle ground always one or the other! It was really hard! When I was diagnosed I was put on a lovely cocktail of drugs.. anti psychotics, anti depressants and mood stabilisers! I didn’t know then how much these tablets would change me.. anyway Borderline Personality Disorder, I was diagnosed last year, now this made a lot of sense.. my emotions were flying around in such a quick succession! And the doctors realised something wasn’t quite clicking! It’s been a tough diagnosis and I’m sure you’ll all hear a lot more about that.. I’m physically disabled and this is one area I can’t control, other than with pain medicine. Hypermobility Syndrome is a literal bitch! Caused so many problems dislocation, it hurts to walk distances, makes my wrists and hands fail miserably!
Well I’ve covered the basics.There is a lot more I’m going to talk about. I’m doing this not just for me but for anyone that struggles with life. Struggles with emotions. I hope to at least help one person realise that although life can be awful, life is also pretty amazing! It’s entirely in our control, well sometimes.